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Okay this is officially the last post for a few weeks. I’ll get back on one more time tonight to check my inbox for any more numbers and then I’m deleting Tumblr off my phone.

See you later everyone

echoesofsam:

I’ve decided to take a break from Tumblr for at least two weeks. I’m telling you all this so you don’t think I’ve offed myself. I just need to get away from this drug and find peace somehow and rediscover science. I miss it so much.

I will be getting back on in an hour or so to check my messages. If anyone lives is the US (or knows the rules for international texting) and wants my number so we can stay in touch while I’m gone just leave me a message. But I’m horrible at texting so no promises on me replying to your message

I’ve decided to take a break from Tumblr for at least two weeks. I’m telling you all this so you don’t think I’ve offed myself. I just need to get away from this drug and find peace somehow and rediscover science. I miss it so much.

I’ve tried this a few times but they were always “mental hobbies” like chess for example (which I can’t seem to play anymore). I considered trying to grow a garden or something but idk. I probably should find something though. I just feel like I won’t enjoy anything that’s not mentally stimulating but I can’t do anything mentally stimulating because My mind is too exhausted all the time idk I just …

All day today I’ve thought I was finally coming back but as soon as (and i do mean instantly) I stop distracting myself (get off Tumblr) I fall right back down. Even avatar isn’t enough of a distraction. I’ve been eating tons of “comfort” food but it’s not helping at all. I told an anon on imagineatoms that I didn’t feel like talking about atoms. I CAN’T BELIEVE IM SO DEPRESSED I CAN’T EVEN TALK ABOUT ATOMS WHAT TE FUCK!

Anyway this is just some post or something

My main fear with going on medication was that meds would “take away my mind”. I’m not even sure what that means but I know in the past few months especially my mind has been anything but exceptional and there’s really nothing to save anymore.

Wednesday I have my EEG to determine exactly what meds are right for me

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